When I found out I was pregnant late last year I was shocked...and terrified. I didn't think it would happened to me and I fornicated without the aid of contraception. I won't give you the fathers name but he was from a VERY well know 'hair band' from the 80's, he was a 'fan' of my site and contacted me by using the whois database. I have since broken all contact with him since he is denying that he fathered my child...but I have records (email phone and pictures) proving that we were together.

I am ashamed to say that my first thought was to get rid of the baby and I did go as far to go to Planned Parenthood and discuss getting an abortion, I was dead set against bringing this child to term. I was very upset at the crowd outside this building they called me awful names and tried to break me down. I was not looking forward to facing them on the way out.

I was again confronted with these people who showed me the slaughtered pictures of aborted children and at the moment I felt god speaking to me telling me to keep my baby! I started to listen to these two women, Maryann and Vera. They told me that I would be a murderer if I went through with this grievous act! There I was in the parking lot of this sin palace accepting Jesus in my heart!

I have been born again! I love jesus! Jesus loves me and my baby! I have confessed to my sisters that I run a domain that was full of sinful dialog and sacrilegious rantings and asked them what should I do? take it down? use it as a vehicle to support our cause? I was shocked to learn that they told me to do nothing and just let it stand as a testament that anyone can change even sinners like "Princess Natalie". This leopard has indeed changed her spots! Gone are the drinking binges, the recreational drug use and promiscuous sex! I have learned that true love begins within!

I attend daily prayer sessions with my sisters and counsel other women who were in my position. I have learned that it is not all my fault that I behaved the way I do, a great deal of the blame goes to my parents who openly used drugs in front of me, and to my grandfather who was a known supporter of the slaughter house known as Planned Parenthood.

I am now beginning to show and it won't be long until my gift from God makes his or her appearance! I have decorated the nursery in soothing colors and I read scripture to my belly every night because as my sisters say "it's never too early to introduce our youngsters to Christ" I believe that todays parents do not give their children enough attention. I will not be one of those mothers!

Where do I go from here? I definitely will not continue the tradition of my old self and upload the filthy politically incorrect material that I did in the past. Occasionally I will, for those who care, update you on my pregnancy. My due date is mid April so I will be having a spring baby! I'm so excited. The sisters will be throwing me a baby shower soon! This is a totally new journey for me and I am very excited! God Bless you all!